Let this moment of clarity lift this curse...

Losing a parent is so tough... Breaks my heart to know what you are going through. Embrace the memories and rely on family and friends... my only words of advice.

What a thought.....

So I completely understand that the media has to show the movies/pics/letter that the Virgina Tech murderer sent in. But at the same time I hate it. That guy does not deserve a name, and does not deserve to have his pics blasted across the country. He was obviously a very troubled young man and what he did was incredibly wrong. I wish we would just focus on the families of the victims and the victims themselves. They should be the ones who are glorified.

To a certain extent I understand that we need to research and attempt to understand his reasoning. Simply so history does not repeat itself. But the society we live in today is a breeding ground for people like this. What a tradegy, and for some odd reason I feel sorry for that guy. He must have been so lonely and disturbed, and although that is no justification for his act it is just a sad reality.

Many thoughts and prayers go to the families of those lost. What an unfortunate and horrific murder that took place just a few days ago. Scary that people like that exist in this world. Who gives anyone the right to take someone elses life. Shameful.

My respects and prayers.
V

Love my girls, love talking, love hiking... had a blast. Yah for new Sunday traditions, and I do not mean church :)

One of these days I'll answer your calls, and one of these days I'll be honest and tell you how I really feel. Its just tough when you don't have the same feelings for someone.... I tend to avoid and hope he'll get the hint. I'll answer, soon. The worst part is, I know its my fault... No intentions of leading you on, and apologizes in advance.

Possible new roomies... A three bedroom would be so fun, I cannot wait to start looking!

-V

I'll be the grapes fermented,
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit
Like a perfect gentlemen,
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgment's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as you're lying there drifting off to sleep...
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold

I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will heat the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change

<3

So... tonight was my last night of class. Ever. I have officially graduated college with my bachelors in Communications. How grown up am I!?!?!?!

And to celebrate, I'm going to bed early and going to work tomorrow. Haha. Many drinks to be had this weekend.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-V

I start my official big girl job tomorrow, and that makes me want to pee my pants. I guess all my work finally paid off, but damn does that mean I have to act like an adult? I do not see that happending any time soon. Wish me luck fuckers!

Tragedy struck when my dear Abbey was hit by a car and passed away at the young age of 8 months old. Its been a tough couple of days. I was beyond attached to my sweet Abbey and seeing her brother Charlie walk around looking for her has been heart breaking.

http://missingabbey.critters.com

My cats mean everything to me, and death is something that has been too close to home the past 5 years. It is always painful, regardless if it is my sweet kitty or sweet mother. It is never easy to let go.

Its amazing how fast the day flew by today.... or yesterday I guess. I made a list of things to do and I just now finished. hahah. Ok i'm delirious and going to bed.

- V

I love Fridays.... Thats really it.

Dear Dominic (Lincoln from Prison Break):

Will you marry me? I realize your married and have children, but we all make mistakes. It's time you realize how perfect we are for eachother.

Sincerely,

Veronica

PS- If you say no, would you ask Wentworth. Thanks.

So I found out today that I get to go to the after party for the Emmys. I'm interning at FOX, and they invited me and one other intern to go. We are the only interns invited!!!!!

We get to dress up formal and work the greeting area, which means we meet all the stars. Yeah for FOX, yeah for interning!

-V

I'm going to get another tattoo tonight. My family has advised me that mutilating my body four days after breaking up is probably not wise. But who said I was ever wise?

I figure maybe a little physical pain will mask the emotional. Good luck to that, eh!

- V

I don't really know how long it would take to get over and to at least walk around with a smile on my face again. Everyone in the office keeps asking, "Whats wrong?". Normally I'd spill my heart, but I'm just not in the mood to talk or deal with things right now. I keep thinking he's just on a trip somewhere and he'll come home and things will be good again. The reality has to set in soon. I wish I could just skip over it.

I hate being lonely. I hate being cliche and spilling my heart to my lj.

- V

So I don't think i've posted in like over a year. Well last night we went and saw my husband Adam, or Taking Back Sunday as they like to call themselves. It was so much fun. I haven't had an awesome time at a show like that in so damn long. It was awesome being with the girls and just loving life...

A few moments to remember...
* Tom running/smiling/Tanya and I confused.
* Skanky girls and low cut shirts.
*"Wanna buy a cd guy" and his funny walk.
* Beer vs. food dilemma
* Tanya's jaw/Mara's nose
* Vanessa trying to fight a gay guy in a tanktop.
* Jenny and I singing, "Close your eyes, just settle"
* Dirty talk about Adam's harmonica.
* Being a wet back walking to the car (wink wink Tanya)
* Jenny/Tanya playing the game... I still don't know who won.
* Every Angels & Airwaves song sounding exactly the same (especially buzzed) But I still love Tom.
* Mara and I holding hands the whole time, like a lesbian couple.

And the biggest moment of them all, I wore closed toe shoes!!! And I went home with both of them. It was a successful evening. And I look forward to many more with my ladies.
Love you hoes!!!

V

Yah for Brokeback Mountain. Well deserved nominations. Great movie, everyone should go see it.

And from the friends I've talked to that their boyfriends won't go see it, they're dumb. My own father is included. The only men that won't go see are either homophobes, or aren't tolerant. I could do a whole post on how important I think Brokeback Mountain is, but I won't go there.

Just go see it, i'm done.

<3 Veronica

We're retarded for eachother...

Sometimes I wonder why we stay...

Will enough ever be enough...

I don't think so. I would never walk away from someone I love so dearly.

Yeah for friends... I have the best group of friends ever. Thank you guys from coming to the relay this weekend. I appreciate it more than you know... I love you all.

Veronica

I think there is a reason this always happens around holidays or birthdays... first it was christmas, now its my birthday.

Damn Andrew and Paul for being in on it together, huh Tea.

I'm just confused. But I think he is too.

One thing i'm sure of is my best friends... I love how they call and text throughout the day to see how i'm doing. Good friends for life i'm sure.

I'm excited about San Diego. I think three solid days of drunkness will be good for me....

<3

Still loving you, and always will.

To my mom:

"You taught me how to love you by
The way that you loved me:
And by your unseen sustenance,
To see what you could see.

You gave to me through who you were,
The gift of what I am.
Your pride in me is now my pride:
Your faith, my caravan.

Your life does not conclude with death,
Nor will it end with mine,
For all the lives I touch, you touch,
And so on through all time."


I have no idea you wrote that, but I love it. Seems to sum exactly how I feel about my mom. At midnight this evening it will be my mother's 49 birthday. Its the third birthday that I have celebrated without her.

Tonight I didn't go out, in loving memory of my mom and to celebrate her birthday I made cookies, watched dirty dancing and cried, cried and then cried a little more. Its the little memories and things that remind me each and every day how she is such a huge part of my life. I hope she knows that my brother and I are ok, and I hope she is proud of me and the person I have become because of her. Its amazing to me how someone that I haven't seen in almost 4 years can be the most influential and important person in my life.

So Happy 49th Birthday Mom, I love and miss you with everything I am.

Love Always,
Your boo baby